Hi! I’m J.J. Ireneo, the poet.
My life has never had directions at all.
In fact, I was at a crossroads recently.
Battling against ego and meaning.
Until I thought of Ludwig Van Beethoven
who wrote music out of a necessity.
It cut my heart to pieces as I was almost
ready to abandon writing.
My soul was hanging on.
My heart refused to die.
And there were always the same themes
that kept on tugging me in;
Grief, death, the most bizarre dreams.
Yes, after all this time,
I am still grieving.
I am grieving everyday.
My father, my little brother.
My grandparents. A childhood friend.
My absence from my family.
My music. My art.
My lost self. My sensibilities.
Despite all that,
I am reborn everyday.
So, I must keep on writing
out of emotional and spiritual
necessities.
Or death would come for me.
So, here I am.
Here I am.
Living.
Once more.*